to rid itself of a considerable chill. This she could
tell him with authority, if she could tell him nothing
else; and she seemed to see now, in short, that it
would importantly simplify. " Yes, it makes an
other; but they all together wouldn't make well,
I don't know what to call it but the difference. I
mean when one is really alone. I ve never seen
anything like the kindness." She pulled up a minute
while he waited waited again as if with his reasons
for letting her, for almost making her, talk. What
she herself wanted was not, for the third time, to
cry, as it were, in public. She had never seen any
thing like the kindness, and she wished to do it jus
tice; but she knew what she was about, and justice
was not wronged by her being able presently to stick
to her point. " Only one's situation is what it is.
It's me it concerns. The rest is delightful and use
less. Nobody can really help. That's why I'm by
myself to-day. I want to be in spite of Miss Croy,
who came with me last. If you can help, so much
the better and also of course if one can, a little,
one's self. Except for that you and me doing our
best I like you to see me just as I am. Yes, I like
it and I don't exaggerate. Shouldn't one, at the
start, show the worst so that anything after that
may be better? It wouldn't make any real differ
ence it won't make any, anything that may happen
won't to any one. Therefore I feel myself, this
way, with you, just as I am; and if you do in the
least care to know it quite positively bears me up."

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